Zoey Kathleen Rojek

I woke the morning of my birthday, May 12th (ironically also Mother's Day) around 3 am and passed a blood clot the size of my palm. I was 100% sure I'd had a miscarriage. I went back to sleep and when I woke, I spoke with Chris and we both decided we should go to the ER. Long story short... A small miracle but the baby was in there and doing fine. Heartbeat and all! ❤️ Best birthday/mother's day gift.

So... this is feeling real now. It's still VERY early and I haven't even had my first ultrasound yet... but I feel very pregnant. My chest is killing me, I can't wear a bra around the house because it's too much. I have some nausea (no vomiting, thankfully) and some aversion to smells - today my husband made this "Chicken Pot Pie" soup and it smelled SOOOO bad, like cat food.  I have to hand it to Chris though, he's being so good about making sure I am comfortable and doing things around the house. I can't imagine doing this without him.  He finally let me tell his mother, I've been dying to for awhile now... but he's so hesitant because of what happened last time. I definitely understand that. I'm reluctant myself. I've only told Ari, Marsha and now my Mother-in-Law. It's hard because the more people you tell, if something goes wrong... it was hard last time to have to let people know. It's better to wait and be 100% tha...

I found out yesterday, I'm pregnant? I put that as a question because I've been through this before. We got pregnant a little less than a year ago. I have reminders from when i had an amazon registry and my old pregnancy app. Sometimes e-mails come through and give a little sting - today I got one saying our baby would be 7 weeks old today. The pregnancy was ectopic and I had to have surgery on my left tube to remove it. My tube, thankfully, was kept intact. However, this is why I am such a nervous nelly right now. The chances of having another ectopic go up when you've already had one. I know I shouldn't just be negative right off the bat, but it's hard not to remember and not want to get excited too early on. My test was also a faint line yesterday, today is slightly darker but still not as solid as I would like it to be. Calculating days, i would only be 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant, so maybe a faint positive is just normal that early on? Anyways, I am trying ...